By Bhavanjot Kaur
“There is no damage so serious, even though it is to the point of insanity, which cannot be erased by the power of prayer.”
My four-year old daughter, Livinia, was recently scheduled to go in for her nine month follow up scans after overcoming cancer. Knowing that we would be stuck in a hospital all day for two scans and a visit with her Oncologist, I decided, the day prior, that it would be good for us both to spend some time out in nature. We spent the day at a local state park that we enjoy from time to time. This place has been a sanctuary to me for as long as I can remember and many years before Livinia came into the world.
Our first stop was to create an altar somewhere off the path by a small bridge with running water below. Livinia had a little sachet filled with crystals and stones that she had carefully selected from her ‘treasure chest’ at home. She picked a flat surface on a stack of rocks and began to place each one in a purposeful way. We also offered some essential oils in gratitude to Mother Earth and I silently prayed for Livinia’s health and asked that she be blessed again with clear scans in the days to come.
At Livinia’s request, we walked along barefoot on the grass, the pavement and the gravel. As we walked along I remembered a time when her father caught a frog and it hopped all around her as she giggled. I could hear her laugh as though it was happening again as we passed the spot where we had been that day just a few years ago. My reminiscent smile was immediately met with a feeling of emptiness and sadness. Her father’s absence quickly came to my awareness and then I felt disappointed that we might never find another frog as my experience as a frog catcher was up until that moment, non-existent.
Livinia and I walked closer to the water near a tree where we have spent many hours in the past. I looked down and to my surprise, right there next to my foot, hopped a little frog. I scooped him up with pure childlike excitement and passed him over to Livinia who giggled as she dropped him a few times for me to rescue again. We decided to carry him over to the brook and we watched him swim through the water and hop from rock to rock. We hung out with him like he was a friend. It was so cool. I felt like my prayers were answered. It was as though her father was there with us in spirit. We were giggling in gratitude.
As we continued ahead, Livinia pointed out some mushrooms, which we call ‘faerie houses’ and then we stopped by a larger bridge with a babbling brook below and took a seat on the stone wall to hang out and toss rocks down below. Livinia had a dragonfly land on her shoulder and then we watched two dragonflies mating right in front of us. We were in complete awe. The magic of this day became so apparent.
It is said that dragonflies mating makes the shape of a heart. Being a Kundalini yogi, I can’t help but connect the heart to my daughter being four years old and the connection to Guru Ram Das as the 4th Sikh Guru, representing the heart chakra. I felt all of my prayers being answered as my fears melted away into a puddle of peace.
As we were heading back to the car to make our way home, Livinia had me stop the stroller that she was riding in by this time, and she pointed at the ground and asked, “Mommy, what is that?”
I looked down to see that she was pointing at a snake skin. I grabbed a stick and picked it up for her to hold. The symbolism of the Kundalini serpentine energy gave me tingles up and down my spine. As the master once said, “As you practice Kundalini Yoga you will grow. Like a snake you will need to shed old skins to be more of who you are.”
That day in nature was a time with my daughter that I will always cherish. We showed gratitude by offering oils to Mother Earth along the way and made a humble altar to offer up our prayers. The response we got was so magical and brought so much joy and peace to us both and that energy carried into the next day at the hospital.
After a full day of sedation and scans along with a twenty-four hour wait, we were notified that our prayers had been answered and her scans came back clear. I immediately cried tears of gratitude and a feeling of peace rushed over my entire being. I then began to pray and I have not stopped since.
In the words of Yogi Bhajan, “You do prayer when you are in difficulty. Pray when you are not in difficulty! That is the attitude of gratitude.”
Bhavanjot Kaur is the owner and founder of Hamsa Healing Arts in Old Saybrook, CT. Bhavanjot is a Kundalini yoga teacher, Reiki Master & Teacher, Craniosacral therapy practitioner and she also offers sound therapy with a 32" gong. Bhavanjot hosts a local women's circle and various workshops on therapeutic grade essential oils, medicinal mushrooms and The Art of Reiki Levels I and II. She is a proud single mother to a beautiful and delightful four-year-old little girl who overcame a rare childhood kidney cancer.
Re-posted from Bhavanjot's blog.